An ironic strength …

This is a song that my x-monster likes. I listened to it closely, just prior to taking my first steps of leaving, while sitting with him watching music videos. I listened to the lyrics, and ironically enough…they seemed to be speaking directly to me and my situation. Up till then, I knew I had to get away. I just didn’t know how…yet.

It was soon after paying attention to the lyrics of this song that I took my first shaky steps. I’m grateful once again, for music.

I still wonder why my x tried to destroy this entity in my life. I wonder even more why I allowed him to, as much as he did. Maybe it’s that he knew how empowering it had been in my own life, which was something he couldn’t allow? I’ll never know for certain.

Except for the few times we listened to music at his house, it was next to impossible for me to listen to it otherwise. I only put up with it then, to keep from waking the beast…again… This went on for almost the entire year we were together. Once I won (by that, I won the fight to get away) my freedom, the first place I turned to was my lonely radio. What a welcome long-lost friend.

The lyrics: ‘Best of you‘ by FOO-FIGHTERS

I’ve Got Another Confession To Make
I’m Your Fool
Everyone’s Got Their Chains To Break
Holdin’ You

Were You Born To Resist Or Be Abused?
Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?
Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?

Are You Gone And Onto Someone New?
I Needed Somewhere To Hang My Head
Without Your Noose
You Gave Me Something That I Didn’t Have
But Had No Use
I Was Too Weak To Give In
Too Strong To Lose
My Heart Is Under Arrest Again
But I Break Loose
My Head Is Giving Me Life Or Death
But I Can’t Choose
I Swear I’ll Never Give In
I Refuse

Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?
Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?
Has Someone Taken Your Faith?
Its Real, The Pain You Feel
You Trust, You Must
Confess
Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?
Oh…

Oh…Oh…Oh…Oh…

Has Someone Taken Your Faith?
Its Real, The Pain You Feel
The Life, The Love
You Die To Heal
The Hope That Starts
The Broken Hearts
You Trust, You Must
Confess

Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?
Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?

I’ve Got Another Confession My Friend
I’m No Fool
I’m Getting Tired Of Starting Again
Somewhere New

Were You Born To Resist Or Be Abused?
I Swear I’ll Never Give In
I Refuse

Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?
Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?
Has Someone Taken Your Faith?
Its Real, The Pain You Feel
You Trust, You Must
Confess
Is Someone Getting The Best, The Best, The Best, The Best Of You?
Oh…

Side note:  I had never heard this song prior to this…I listened primarily to Country and Classic Rock. My x was the one who introduced this song to me, when watching videos. He had no idea what I heard or what caught my attention. He had no clue that HE was the one who introduced something to me that would give me the strength and ability to get away. For that, I say resoundingly…THANK YOU!

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